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"The trick to forgetting the big picture is to look at everything close-up. The shortcut to closing a door is to bury yourself in the little details. The facts."
Chuck Palahniuk, Lullaby.
"You’d be surprised just how fast you can close the door on your past. No matter how bad things get, you can still walk away."
Chuck Palahniuk, Lullaby.
I couldn’t do it anymore. I couldn’t stop myself from falling absolutely and totally, 100% head over heels in love with you. I may have had you fooled for a while, but in fooling myself, I was not so successful. I know I was always weary of getting close to you and now I look back and realise how silly I was. I really couldn’t have asked for anyone better, sometimes you have to meet the bad people to appreciate the good ones. I couldn’t be happier that you’re one of the good ones. It’s the little things like how my head fits perfectly in that space beneath your chin. Like the way I hear your heart beating when I lay atop your chest. Like the way you smile when you see me after you haven’t for a while. Like the way you say ‘I Love You’. Like the look you give me when you glance sideways and notice me gazing at you with so much love and adoration. Like the way you suddenly pull me close and squeeze me tight. It’s the little things that are sometimes the big things. And I don’t think you have any idea what happens inside of me when you grab my face, pull me close and kiss me like you never want to do anything else for the rest of your life. Butterflies errupt inside my belly and I am filled with absolute giddiness, love and appreciation for such a beautiful human being. You have no idea how much I adore the moments in which our clothes slip off and end up scattered around your bedroom floor. The moments our bodies fit together in the most perfect ways. It’s in those moments that I feel so close to you, so vulnerable, like there is nothing between us; nothing holding us back. It’s just the feeling of your skin on mine and it doesn’t get much better than that. I’m tired but I can’t sleep. I miss the feeling of you next to me. Of our bodies fitting together so perfectly. Of your skin on my skin, your lips on mine. Of the way you hold me and pull me in close. I want to fall asleep to your heart beating and the sound of your breathing. I love you more than ever. I honestly do not even think there are words that could possibly even begin to describe the weekend I had. It’s amazing how 24 hours can change so much and bring two people closer together than they ever have been before. It’s moments like these when you grab me and pull me close to you while we’re laying on my bed, that I think about how I don’t know what I ever did without you. Now I can’t imagine you not being in my life. I need this. |
